I am so frustrated this morning. Have you ever noticed that when you are overweight, people do not feel like they have the right to comment on your weight, etc. However, lose a little, and it's like you stuck out a sign that says "open for comments".
Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love the comments I have gotten from most people. "You look great!" "WOW! I almost didn't recognize you!" and even "Where did your butt go?" have really made my day. But the, "You are too skinny, you need to stop", "You are going to blow away", "You've stopped this diet haven't you?", "Why are you running, you have already lost plenty of weight" comments are driving me insane. Why do you think you get a say-so?
Then again, in the back of my mind, I doubt myself. When I was in high school, I lost weight. A lot of weight. Too much weight. I had a problem. It actually took a small intervention on my parents' part to snap me out of it. It wasn't Lifetime Movie of the Week serious, but it was out of hand. I had pretty low self-esteem, a couple of influences in my life which were ZERO help, and just needed to snap out of it.
So, in the back of my mind I wonder, is this like last time? Maybe they are right? Then I also remember that I know people who have been overweight for a while and when they lose weight, it looks drastic and almost like they are too skinny, but I think that's because I'm used to seeing them heavier. Maybe this is the case with me.
I don't know. I know that according to ideal weight guidelines for my height, 125-145 is an ideal weight range. I fall smack in the middle. My goal is 130.
I know that this time, I'm eating healthier and I'm exercising. I do treat myself to cake, ham and cheese croissants, BBQ sausage, etc. Just not every day. I'm not depriving myself. I think I'm doing this the right way.
I don't want to look skinny....I want to look healthy. I want to look "athletic". Why do people care? What makes them think they have any input into the situation?
When I say "people" I mean the coach at the school who was helping with drop offs this morning, the electrician at the mill whom I don't even know that well, a supervisor in the front office who has a comment about EVERYTHING.
However, my husband, mother, aunt, cousin, friend at work, and people closest to me haven't said anything negative. UUUUGGGHHHHH!!!!
This lifestyle change should make me feel happy, not stressed.
On another, much happier note, I had a message on my facebook last night from someone from high school I had ran into a month or so ago at the mall....
"I never told you BUT when i saw you in the mall that day and how little you were I told myself I CAN DO IT TOO! So all thanks to you i have (so far) lost 6.6 lbs. THANKS!!! "
I seriously cried after reading this. How sweet of her!! I am so proud of her!!!
So, I'm going to focus on this and not the other crap and have a good day. I'm going to run tonight and be excited about it. Take that Negative Nellies!!!!